Or is it? It’s really up to you. According to Mayan prophesy tomorrow is the last day of the world. I would like to follow that with .......As We Know It, borrowing from the song title of one of my favorite bands, R.E.M. I am guessing tomorrow will look like any other day - on the surface. But it can be your greatest opportunity to leave behind what you know no longer serves your highest and most marvelous self. It can be the end of the negative self-talk, self-judgment and conditioning, that keeps you from listening to, and living from, your heart. Really? Yes! And there is not a magic wand in sight.
Here is a sneak preview of the cover:
“It’s cancer. I am sorry.”
He said it so fast. I didn’t cry—there would be plenty of time for that later. I just looked at the three of them in disbelief. How could he tell me that when I finally had a new plan? I let out a sigh that felt like it had been trapped forever. “What does that mean now?” I asked, digging my nails into my sweaty fists, so afraid of what he would say next. Would I die this time?
He said it meant I had to have surgery right away to remove my right breast completely. There was no room for protest. They would give me the strongest and meanest chemotherapy they could this time—no more pretending it was okay. This cancer was obviously aggressive, and that’s how they were going to treat it. They would call me on Monday and schedule more tests to determine if it had spread. The consultation was over. This time, my question changed from, “How quickly can I get back to normal?” to “How long do I have to live?”
When I left the hospital, I went directly back to my apartment and pushed track number three on the stereo again. “It’s the End of the World as We Know It (And I Feel Fine)” blared out from the speakers, filling the room, but I didn’t jump around as I normally did when I heard that song. Instead, I sat on the floor, still in my suit, and looked down at my perfectly balanced breasts. The world as I knew it ended that day, and strangely, I did feel fine. I silently promised myself that there would be no going back to normal. I figured normal wasn’t so great anyway, since it had brought me to a third diagnosis of cancer.
I knew life had to be different. There would be no more warnings. I had to pay attention
and start listening to my body, my dreams, and my soul. However, I had no idea how to
I am excited to share more of this story with you, and invite you into the relationship of untying the knots that keep you stuck in your own story.
In the meantime, stay tuned to your heart, and trust in LOVE. You are worth it.....
Solstice Blessings to YOU!
p.s. Check out R.E.M to help celebrate!